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Aaskereia at Ultima Ratio 2006 [Nov. 9th, 2008|08:28 pm]
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Aaskereia - Gedanken [Nov. 9th, 2008|08:24 pm]
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[Current Location |Aaskereia - Gedanken]
[mood |Aaskereia - Gedanken]
[music |Aaskereia - Gedanken]

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R.I.P. Terry Lee Sprout 09-02-1947 - 09-11-2008 [Sep. 13th, 2008|08:28 pm]
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My dad just passed away after suffering from a combination of Diabetes, lung cancer, hepatitis c, and general bad health. The world goes on.
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A journal entry [Aug. 27th, 2008|12:54 am]
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[mood |awakeawake]
[music |Mayhem - Out From The Dark]

Life is kind of rough for me right now. I am dealing with alot of grief in my family and friendships, being shaken up and forced to make evaluations as to what's going to be left behind, sacrificed to keep moving on, just keep my head above the waves... I have a few true friends who I know will be with me no matter what, and will give as much support as I need... That's definitely enough for me and I'm eternally thankful.
My 31st birthday is coming up and that's pretty wierd. I never thought I'd live to be 30, I sometimes feel like an alien creature wearing someone else's body, living someone else's life, I don't even know how to adequately convey how it feels, I suppose it's a chrysalis stage, I just hope I emerge from it whole and functional. Not just be another one of god's little mistakes, something for others to pity or learn from as an example of what to avoid. Anyway, I've spent enough time fucking off and doing nothing, wasting time, being trashed and strung out, I don't have the lack of character to stay stuck in such regressive, purposeless behaviour, and become one of those sick soulless creatures on the public walkways begging for beer money or eating from wastebins, wearing filthy rags and surviving just to exist. I will continue to struggle, to pay off my accrued debts, to support my mother and sister, to get myself another place to live, and a new vehicle, to study and kick ass on this fucked up world, to make it serve me; make it exist for my purpose, my will. To bring into being my supreme will, the burning essense of desire that spawned myself into being. I won't be denied of that. And I won't let my friends be cheated of what I can bring them in this life...
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(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2007|06:25 pm]
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[music |Bauhaus - Press the Eject & Give Me the Tape]

Here is how it works. Copy this list. Leave in the bands you've seen perform live. Delete the ones you haven't and add new ones that you have seen until you reach 25. An asterisk means the previous person had it on their list. Two asterisks means the last two people who did this before you had that band on their list, etc.
1. GWAR
2. Dimmu Borgir****
3. Sisters of Mercy
4. Malevolent Creation
5. Morbid Angel***
6. Judas Priest***
7. Moonspell*
8. Satyricon
9. Nile***
10. Cypress Hill
11. Cannibal Corpse
12. Severed Savior
13. Misfits
14. Acheron
15. Possessed*
16. Impaled
17. Deicide*
18. Danzig**
19. Suicidal Tendencies
20. Type O Negative
21. Iron Madien*
22. Dying Fetus
23. Mortem (Peru)
24. Celtic Frost*
25. Suffocation


here is the one i got this from - bitchybunny
1. Lacuna Coil***
2. Dimmu Borgir***
3. Samael
4. Opeth***
5. Morbid Angel**
6. Judas Priest**
7. Moonspell
8. My Life With the Thrill Kill Kult
9. Nile**
10. Behemoth**
11. Bile
12. Mortician
13. Carpthain Forest
14.AngelCorpse
15. Possessed
16.MDM
17. Deicide
18. Danzig*
19. Therion
20. Slayer
21. Iron Madien
22. Cathedral
23. Immortal*
24. Celtic Frost
25. Diana Ross (too young to remember, but I was there so I guess I should throw that in)
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(no subject) [Sep. 2nd, 2007|05:22 pm]
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[music |Pentagram - Review Your Choices]



















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ashes [Jul. 31st, 2007|09:13 pm]
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[mood |grim]
[music |Dusk]

Bleeding from thousand wound
My black blood crying in the night
A mirror
What is totally black
If I hold it before me
There is no hardly anything
Only ashes
Only solitude
Burning out everything

Everything is dead in my inner self
However, I live
There still are ashes
The remains of a devastation

Although, the screaming what I feel
Is before the ages, I still hear it
Black fog buries the air
What is living here?

The smell is the odour of a rotting timeless time
The air corrodes everything
What is ventures to here
Only ashes

Ashes everywhere

There is no life
This is the empire of the eternal Death
The place, where the escaping wanderers
Pilgrimizes from the life
Empire of the Past
Scream of our black blood


Scream of our black blood
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ALONE IN MISERY, IN NIGHTLIGHT [Jul. 11th, 2007|11:10 pm]
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[music |Immortal - At the Heart of Winter]

-I-REVILED-I-

Run to your houses when the night comes over
pray in darkened sanctu'ries that the lord will keep your souls
tremble in your beds as the howling wind chills your bones
sweet little lamb...


You will never be saved
when the sun comes to light again
I shall be far gone from your world
And in hatred with pain I vow to seal the doom
in the reviled, the forbidden, the despise, the forlorn,
in the darkness of death is my home


And though your men rise with holy furor to crush me out;
the spike I drive into you, you will never heal

The thorn in your flesh, the sting and the infection
congealing your soured blood.

For mine is the horrors insanity and wretched scars,
the iniquities of all the damned,
forsaken by your god.

Not by choice but by power
far beyond your works
unseen, unknown
closing in on you

Dismayed emmanuel
Betrayed accusers
revealed as murderers
failed evangelists
Bearded hustlers*
which side would a right mind
choose?

Look upon the evils
Let your mortal soul
suffer the inverted wisdom
of carnality's law
Blossomed into scorn
Enriched by blood


Listen to the storming winds howl, they thrash your land
they carry pestilence to wither your crops
Behold your houses in flames!
Listen to the night winds howl, they sing of your doom...... 


-l-DCLXVI-l-
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(no subject) [Jun. 18th, 2007|10:59 pm]
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[music |Falls of Rauros - Window of the Eye demo]

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Gone. [May. 28th, 2007|01:33 am]
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[music |Nuit Noire - Infantile Espieglerie]

Gone.

Blue eyes bleeding tears
emotional depths
needing release
pleading death

Altar of sacrifice;
this body willing
the flesh a pretense
restrained

in this vestibule to eternity
siezing now the bottle,
tightening the rope
uplifting now the razor
eyes to the everdark

hope forlorn and failure,
in this cursed realm
submerged

soul drifts into night
soul slips away
in trance

   it will find another...
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